It has been four years since he died but until now, I still grief of lossing a father like him and feel guilty that I was not on his side when he died knowing he waited me on the time we agreed the last night I was talking to him. Hard to understand but then I can never turn back the time. Only acceptance can help me changed this sadness because I know that lossing a father can happen to anyone,expected or unexpected. Either way it hurts. I know he's watching over me. Only i hope that he is happy and proud of who I am now. Papa, I missed you so much and forever you are in my heart....and no one can ever take that away.